purpose.

Hello hello hello! That's right, it is your favorite time of the day where you have the privilege of getting inside my head. Oh the joys.

SO. First and foremost, an update.
My last post I mentioned some things, some "dropping out of school moving to Vancouver on a whim" things. That particular game plan has indeed changed (to my mothers gratitude). I am not dropping out of school, but rather graduating early without my infant toddler & special needs certificate. Therefore, I will not be moving anywhere until at least January of next year. This was a pretty tricky decision to make, but due to some behind the scenes paperwork type things, it is totally in my best interest to just finish one more semester. I can do it. I can totally do it. (the more I repeat that the truer it becomes, right?).

Another update to my constantly changing life is that I am finished first year in approximately one week! That is nuts, I cannot tell you how excited I am for summer. Not just excited, but I am in genuine need of summer. So that is, the best thing in the world right now.

Second best thing in the world right now: I have multiple confirmed nanny jobs lined up for those 4 months without school. I have been super blessed by some families in the area reaching out to me looking for childcare. It would be wonderful to have one family contact me, but I have had multiple! AND the families that have contacted me are being super flexible, so I can fill my time helping out multiple families within the week. How wonderful.

So that is the big news as of today, in terms of big changes (if those even count as big changes). But today I am writing for a different reason, a mental health sort of reason. Some people might be aware that I have recently been going through some stress/anxiety issues. I have indeed gone to the doctor, and even the Doc agrees that I need a bit of a mental break. SO I was lucky enough to get a week off of work, still have to go to school but we'll take this one step at a time.

It sounds sort of silly, but even just one weekend to myself without stress and worrying about a thousand different things has been such an incredible blessing. Just this weekend I have been able to 1. get my homework done on time. 2. play around with my camera (which I have missed so greatly). 3. go out for coffee with Paris (twice!) 4. Go for a walk with Paris. 5. Read. 6. Blog. 7. do some laundry and cleaning. and 8. go for dinner with my bff tamarama.

If you know what my typical weekend looks like, you might understand how freaking crazy it is that I got to do even one of these things. I have decided that my latest "project" is to do things with purpose. If all I want to do for a day is watch Friends, that's alright. As long as I'm doing it for a purpose, even if the purpose is to laugh for a couple hours and not to shower. That is gonna be my purpose for the day.

I think, and I hope I'm right, that if I start doing everything in life for a purpose, then not only will the fun and exciting things be fulfilling, but so will the hard and boring things. I have lived long enough to know that there are certain things that suck, but if I can just remind myself that there is always a reward (though it may be hard to acknowledge at times) then maybe doing those tedious things might seem simpler to do? I'm not sure if this game plan is going to be successful, only time will tell. But I am in dire need of a change in outlook, and maybe this will help? I dont know, I guess I'll keep you updated. Wish me luck my readers, I might just need it.