4 Reasons I am My Own Worst Enemy

Have you ever heard the phrase you are your own worst enemy? Yeah, you probably have. Something about phrases that speak truth, they tend to stick with you. This is a phrase I find myself referring to quite often, and today I have decided that I am going to pin point the exact 5 reasons why I am my own worst enemy. So here it goes. 

1. Not Saying No. 

As of lately one of my biggest issues has been a matter of exhaustion. I am physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. Which totally makes sense! I am working part time, in practicum full time, taking hours out of the day to get homework done, spending time with various loved ones, and throw on going to the doctor, getting check ups at the dentist, shopping for gifts (still don't know why there are so many birthdays this month), babysitting, being a youth leader and we haven't even touche on watching Dancing With the Stars every Monday night! I have a lot going on. I really do. And part of the reason I have such a busy schedule and little to no time for myself is because I do not know how to say no. Sure, some things I have to do regardless of what I want, but there is a good chunk of my schedule that could be spent elsewhere if I could just learn how to say no. It's not even a hard word, literally just two letters. Come on Dani. 

2. Obsessive Overthinking. 

If you know me in the slightest you would know just how often and how easily I can ruin my day with a single thought. I don't know if this has been a habit of mine for a long time, but it's recently been pointed out to me and I would be an idiot to disagree. Sometimes it's the stupidest thing, but I overthink things to the point that it doesn't even make sense. And then I spend the next forever stressing about the tiniest potential chance that something awesome is going to go horribly bad. What the heck Dani. Just enjoy things. Stop thinking. Please. 

3. Procrastination.

I will admit, this is an area that I am increasingly improving on. And this last year of school has totally whipped my but into shape. However, to say I do not procrastinate would be a complete lie. I just think it's the weirdest thing that we spend so much time doing virtually nothing, and then cry because we don't have enough time to get something done? Like what. That doesn't even make sense. 

4. Comparison.

It's like they say, "comparison is the theif of joy". Truth. I, unfortunately, am a sucker for the dreaded life of comparison. I don't know why I do it. Well, insecurities I guess. I compare myself to my best friends and complete strangers. All the time. Gross, right? Whether it's grades, looks, job, intellectual competencies, or what I'm eating. I have put myself into this constant battle with other individuals, and the outcome is always the same: inferiority. And when I feel inferior to a person, this thing starts to happen where I give up trying. So yah, maybe that whole comparison thing isn't actually a good idea? 

So there you have it. The top 4 reasons why I am my own worst enemy. I think about some of the common things that create anxiety in my life; body image, school, time management etc. but really how necessary is it for me to get so upset about such meticulous little things. It's dumb. Dumb Dani. Now that I am aware of some of my biggest issues, maybe I can make conscious efforts to kick these habits right in the bum. Not saying no, overthinking, procrastination & comparison: good riddance.